Thursday, June 14, 2012

People Placement

My head is full.

With exactly two weeks until surgery my head brims with thoughts; so many thoughts it seems it could just split open, it's so crowded up there.

Needless to say, I've written many blog posts, but have been forced to abandon them because they either lack coherency or they are unfit for public consumption. I need more time to process. All the thoughts are gumming up the gears of my processing function...

But one thing I am sure of, the thing that is coherent and always fit for the public is what I am thankful for.

I'm stunned and so thankful for the people God has placed in my life for such a time as this.

And I'm not talking about my friend's-sister's-ex-boyfriend's-mother's-gardener; you know, the person we're now four degrees away from thanks to the cultural reality of Facebook and the like. I'm talking about the people who were already a part of our life before we found out our daughter had a congenital heart defect.

People like:
  • my friend Miss L--who underwent open-heart surgery within the past year and can easily remember the emotional effects and physical trauma--who is always, always available to talk.
  • And her husband Dr. M. who asked around for the best pediatric cardiothoracic surgeon for us--because doctors speak to doctors much more candidly than they do to us laypeople, don't you think?--and the unanimous vote was for Dr. Turrentine, our surgeon.
  • Miss T who cried with me after Sylvie's first needlessly frightening newborn check-up and helped us find our current pediatrician who has both personal and professional ties to congenital heart defects. Now we enjoy a pediatrician who is knowledgeable AND has a calming bedside manner.
  • Miss MB, a fellow mom in Emeline's preschool co-op whose own sweet daughter had major surgery just before Sylvie was born. She gets it. I never feel the need to 'keep a stiff upper lip' with her. AND she connected me to a mom in Texas whose own daughter had the same surgery earlier this year. Unbelievable.
  • Miss S who knew I would experience conflicting emotions and feel like I was losing it at times, but told me not to battle against those emotional states. She encouraged me to embrace them--even for fear of appearing weak--because it's not our responsibility to hold it all together, it's his.
  • Then there are our friends and strangers who are praying for us and who brought us meals during those first few weeks and who have sent encouraging words...you know who you are...
My head is full; full of thanks.

2 comments:

  1. We are praying for Sylvie and all of the Hoovers each day. You're right. There are so many things to be thankful for. Your link to Colossians 1:17 was amazing. I so look forward to hearing how the Lord upheld each of you with his love and protection when you write about it 2 (ish) weeks from now. Psalm 5:11

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    1. Thank you Betty. I miss you guys!

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